16. “These are the pictures I would like to post, but don’t. It is what I look like when the dark thoughts take over… I am more than just smiling selfies. I am all these things. I am black and white and everything in between. Can you see me? How could I show you this side of me? Will you hate me? Pity me? Judge me? I am to scared to find out.” — Mijenou M.
17. “I dare not show this face and these pictures except only to one person because I’m so raw from people’s criticisms, invalidation and manipulation.” — Mariah G.
18. “My mood can change so fast and there are days [when] I just can’t. I can’t get out of bed, I can’t function and I feel like I can’t even be around people. This picture was taken in the hospital before I was officially diagnosed with BPD, but was taken when I was having a day that the symptoms were really bad. BPD makes you want to just give up some days.” — Justine M.
19. “[This is a screenshot] of a short five second video I want to post on social media, but can’t. My battle with borderline personality disorder has been no less than a train wreck recently. This video was sent to my closest [friends] through Snapchat while I was having yet another suicidal breakdown, almost fully ready to end it there and then. The next morning, I had no choice but to act like nothing bad had happened. The reason why I want to post this video is to clear a blatant misconception that many people have of a mental illness… But for most people with BPD like myself, confidence, leadership and other qualities come through easily and we end up projecting this idea of false ‘happiness’ into the surrounding world. I happen to be the most spontaneous, jolly, loud and comical person my friends could know and so when I break down like this, hardly anyone believes in my essentially, to-the-core-flawed brain.” — Fatima N.
20. “I am currently living with BPD and as an artist, sometimes photography is the only outlet that can truly soothe me. I will take self-portraits displaying my current emotions or feelings, but sometimes they are too emotional to post. I feel I may be judged or labeled as ‘attention seeking’ as they are generally not very happy portraits.” — Katherine V.
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If you need support right now, call the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline at 1-800-273-8255 or text “START” to 741-741.