“Saturday Night Live’s” “Resident Young Person” Pete Davidson revealed Monday he’s been diagnosed with borderline personality disorder.
The 23-year-old comedian explained his long-awaited diagnosis came after a stint in rehab and several instances of unexplained breakdowns that he initially attributed to his marijuana habit.
“I’ve been a pothead forever and I started in October, or September of last year, having these mental breakdowns where I would freak out like, rage, and not remember what happened after. Blind rage,” he told Marc Maron on the star’s podcast, “WTF with Marc Maron.”
Davidson decided to enter rehab to kick his drug habit, which he has previously said eased the symptoms of his Crohn’s disease.
Once in rehab, the doctors began to suspect that it was more than just the drugs causing his breakdowns, and prescribed him medicine to help treat what they thought could be bipolar disorder.
“I got out and then I started smoking weed again, and I’m on meds,” he said. “So I was feeling a little better, so two months go by and I just snapped. I was smoking weed every day, I just snapped and had a really bad mental breakdown. So I freaked out and I was like, it has to be the weed.”
Davidson cut out the pot and announced his sobriety, even filling in the folk at “Saturday Night Live” in a move that he called “very embarrass(ing).”
But after staying sober for nearly four months, he saw no change in his troubling behavior.
“I still felt the same, I still felt like something was f–ked up and something was wrong, and I found out I have BPD, which is borderline personality disorder,” he told Maron, explaining that one of his psychiatrists finally delivered the official diagnosis.
While Davidson still admits he’s “depressed all the time,” he said new medication and dialectical behavior therapy have helped him manage his symptoms, “slowly but surely.”
“I’ve been having a lot of problems — this year has been a f–king nightmare. This has been the worst year of my life,” he said. “It’s getting better, but it’s taking a while.”
The Staten Island native’s father was a firefighter who died during the Sept. 11 attacks. Davidson has talked openly in the past about the gaping hole his father’s death left, and told Maron that the sense of abandonment his father’s death instilled is likely related to his BPD.
“My big thing is trust, it’s like one day he was here, and then the next day they’re gone,” he said.
Davidson was largely absent during the 42nd season of “Saturday Night Live,” but he’ll be back for the show’s 43rd season premiere Sept. 30.